Well, change may come yet

I may be able to survive this yet. And that's because I will be able to spend a good amount of time in NY. There is going to be no other way. I will not be able to make it if I have to stay here the whole year for years to come. But if I can spend part of the year; the best part of the year, in NY, then I will survive, and most likely thrive. And this is indeed the agreement that we have come to. I get to go, by myself even. Clear my head. Save money. Be myself again.

So I'm trying to find either a second job or a new job, and it's a joke here. I just had an interview at a camera store for a lab position/sales, and they only pay 7.50!! WTF??? Z just had an interview at Barnes and Noble, and they only pay 7.50!!! I got paid 9 an hour at a lab 12 YEARS AGO! I know NY pays more, but man, is this the economy, or does it just really suck here?

So I have less than 5 months to get everything worked out if I am going to make it to NY by April. That is the goal. But there is so much debt to pay to just catch up before I can start saving... I have faith I can pull it off, because I HAVE TO!