Before there was boring comfort.... Now there is soulcrushing challeng, but love... I have to be really fucking strong.

cleanin fool

I've been a cleanin fool for the last three days... Boyfriend's parents coming and he's at work all day so I've gladly taken on the cleaning. Also gives me a way to feel more moved in.

Got the job I interviewed for, but it does't start until August 10, and I have like 20 bucks to my name till then. This is not good. I even keep entertaining the idea that I may need to borrow money from my father, but I'm going to try so hard NOT to do that. This is one of the toughest times of my life, yet has the promise of being the beginning of one of the best...

Back to cleaning.

This is a test to see if I can update from my phone...

dealt with Denver.... Now myself

About to get ready for an interview in Rhode Island. That is almost as far away from Denver that I could possibly get right now... lol. The job is actually in CT, my new home. Crazy times have ensued. So I've dealt with Denver, sort of, and now I have to deal with my emotionally spent broke ass, as well as the other pieces I have to pick up.

First half of the year spinning, second half normality? We'll see. There is love, war, friendship, pride, embarrassment, and hope all in the mix.

To Alison:

We both still share a common goal even if the path is not together as we hoped. I wish you peace. I wish you love. I also wish you'd see that this war is not worth your time.

On with the day....