So the divorce proceedings have finally commenced. I let him make the first draft, which I received last night only after noticing his facebook status which was absolutely ridiculous. He writes these long verbose status upsates like they are mini novel contests. It's almost like being single has made him geekier.

I can handle his overt geekiness if there weren't little digs within it here and there littering his page. They do not take into account his part in the marriage's demise. He also is so stuck in woe is me mode that he is not realizing that leaving a 10 year old relationship weighs heavily on my head. I do not like it; it is against what , and it does hold me back in my current relationship. Not too much though, Michael is awesome.

I need sleep. Badly! Zzzzzzz.

Second day started waaaaaaaaaay too early and mass amounts of coffee was needed to function. But now tis all good.

Sittin on a lunch break at the first training day for Lifetouch. So far it all seems very much like what I'm familiar with which is good...and no bats!

First day without Alexis, and first day of work in CT... What a weird day this is going to be! Hopefully a successfull day.

Before there was boring comfort.... Now there is soulcrushing challeng, but love... I have to be really fucking strong.

cleanin fool

I've been a cleanin fool for the last three days... Boyfriend's parents coming and he's at work all day so I've gladly taken on the cleaning. Also gives me a way to feel more moved in.

Got the job I interviewed for, but it does't start until August 10, and I have like 20 bucks to my name till then. This is not good. I even keep entertaining the idea that I may need to borrow money from my father, but I'm going to try so hard NOT to do that. This is one of the toughest times of my life, yet has the promise of being the beginning of one of the best...

Back to cleaning.

This is a test to see if I can update from my phone...

dealt with Denver.... Now myself

About to get ready for an interview in Rhode Island. That is almost as far away from Denver that I could possibly get right now... lol. The job is actually in CT, my new home. Crazy times have ensued. So I've dealt with Denver, sort of, and now I have to deal with my emotionally spent broke ass, as well as the other pieces I have to pick up.

First half of the year spinning, second half normality? We'll see. There is love, war, friendship, pride, embarrassment, and hope all in the mix.

To Alison:

We both still share a common goal even if the path is not together as we hoped. I wish you peace. I wish you love. I also wish you'd see that this war is not worth your time.

On with the day....

For Mike

If it weren't 2:30 in the morning  Iwould update this to give you something new to read. I did however correct my profile as you so kindly suggested. 

And when you think it can't get worse...

it SOOOO can. Could this finally be the point where I can't get any lower, and I can finally start working upward? I can't take much more.

Anyway, I have three weeks left before leaving, and sooo much to do. I cannot wait to get out of here!!! I need this time away so bad it's ridiculous. I just hope my husband doesn't kill my fish or plants. LOL. Er.....

tired

I'm tired. I've reached my max and my head is going to explode. :) Yay!

It's getting closer

Three months to go. Nothing much has changed though. Still at the same job, though it is picking up a bit. Still behind with bills. I may be going to NY with nothing, but I'm still going. As a new year's resolution, I'm going back to raw food, and will be trying to stop drinking Starbucks. I can use that money to save for NY. I could potentially save a few hundred dollars this way. Yeah, it's been a terrible habit.

I'm going to try to make this year a good one. 2008 sucked ass. Alot of ass. I have a long way to go. Or it seems that way. One change could make all the difference. Right now money and my health is the focus. The last two months have been just so hard. I have let my stress and depression get the better of me. It makes me sleep too much, do too little, depletes my energy and motivation. I NEED CHANGE!